TUESDAY, DECEMBER 12, 2017

Category: Astrology

New Post on Patreon = Yay, Progress in the Cancer Fight!

Finally, after weeks of silence, I’ve finally managed  to string enough (semi)-coherent words together to put an update on Patreon.  🙂

The short version is:  cancer kicked my butt more than I naively expected it to, and only now, after many weeks of chemo and radiation and currently even more radiation do I finally feel like I just might be able to kick back.  Like, with some actual force (just wait ’til I get my thigh muscles back…).  😉

My sense of humor has actually returned with a vengeance, as has my desire to do stuff.  But for now, I’ve more energy for sensing and talking than doing.  So, I’m slowly going to start braving local events over the next few months and doing readings again on a very limited basis.  I don’t want to push it, but I also am of the “use it or lose it” school of thought, especially when it comes to mental and energetic skills, so I don’t want to sit dormant for too long.  Plus I think that helping others as a reader is probably some of the best anti-cancer juju I can muster, so long as I have the strength to do it.  A little at a time will hopefully go a long way.  🙂

Prolonged Absence

I’ve dropped off the Internet for the past few weeks.  For those wondering why, I’ve been going through health problems that have almost completely disrupted my life, so that writing anything at all, even a short update, has been beyond my capability, much less maintaining the schedule of daily posting that I had been before this.

I’ve been diagnosed with a large ovarian cyst and uterine fibroids, and there are some reasons for concern about the potential for ovarian cancer with this, both because of the initial ultrasound results and the way that cancer gallops through both sides of my family.  More testing is on the way, and surgery – how extensive that surgery will be depends on the test results and whether the cyst in particular turns out to be cancerous.  Meanwhile, I am being bombarded with some pretty awful symptoms resulting from the cyst and fibroids themselves plus all of the other bodily systems impacted by the resulting changes in my abdominal landscape, including things I would not have expected, such as my hips and tailbone refusing to function normally and impacting my ability to walk (or stand, or sit, or lie down…).  I’ve dealt with fibromyalgia and autoimmune issues for years and thought I was fairly decent at managing pain before all this, so I was rather blindsided by the extent to which this condition has incapacitated me, despite the corollary astrological transits that I had previously noted approaching – transiting Saturn is currently squaring my natal Pluto while simultaneously transiting Pluto is conjuncting my natal Venus, Sun, and Mercury at the same time, a combination tailor-made for dismantling and rebuilding my self (particularly my self as a woman) from the ground up, and doing so in some especially challenging ways.

It’s probably going to be a while before I get back to posting here regularly.  At this point, if I do post any new content it will most likely be on Patreon for my supporters there (the art that accompanies this post is included here, along with some notes on its creation).  I am still doing readings at a few events over the course of the summer, and praying that my event schedule doesn’t get disrupted too badly by the surgery and recovery time – the surgery has not yet been scheduled, but it needs to happen soon to maximize my capacity to survive if the cyst does indeed turn out to be cancerous.  I will post here once I know more.  Meanwhile, I am still drawing (really slowly), knitting (also slowly), and keeping an eye on the heavens.  Life continues, even if I’m currently forced to conduct it at a snail’s pace.

 

 

 

Astrology Update, May 1st, 2017: Unquiet Moods

Early this morning the Moon in Cancer opposed Pluto in Capricorn, increasing our emotional awareness of the hidden forces in our lives and intensifying our feelings.  We were instinctively drawn to experiences that stirred up the deepest parts of our subconscious, causing us to act impulsively and compulsively, and may have found ourselves in conflict with those closest to us as a result.  Our most complex emotions may have worked their way to the surface during this time, including those we would rather have remained buried, such as jealousy, guilt, or a desire for control over the actions and emotions of others.  Since we were not likely to be thinking clearly at this time it was not a good morning for drawing any conclusions about what we were feeling, though thinking about the events of the morning with a clearer head later on may have yielded useful insights about parts of our psyches we don’t normally confront.  For those still asleep during this time, our dreams may have been disruptive and disturbing, and upon awakening we may have had a rough start to the morning as a result.

Toward midday the Moon in Cancer squared Mercury retrograde in Aries, putting our thoughts and emotions at odds, and making it difficult to communicate with others without conflict or misunderstanding.  We may have wanted very much to express our feelings during this time but found it difficult to do so in ways that others could relate to.  Or we may have held back on expressing what we felt but found ourselves behaving in antagonistic ways toward others as a result of our frustrations regarding what we felt unable to express.  And since others around us were experiencing similar frustrations, the early afternoon could have been a very tense time indeed for all concerned.  Our opinions were likely to fluctuate greatly during this time as well, increasing the likelihood of misunderstandings and confusion, and it was not a good time for decisiveness as a result.

A short while later the Moon in Cancer squared Uranus in Aries, increasing the volatility of our emotions and our instinctive reactions.  We may have felt restless and uneasy, easily upset, and may have found outer circumstances mirroring our inner disquiet through sudden changes and distressing interactions with others.  A sense of contrariness was stirred up by this aspect, leading us into disagreements solely because we are fed up with the status quo, wanting to upset the apple cart just to see what will happen.  We were likely to feel a bit reckless and experimental, aggressively devil-may-care and craving excitement and something, anything different, and anyone making emotional demands on us or otherwise restricting our freedom during this time was not likely to be looked upon kindly, even and perhaps especially those to whom we normally are closest.  This period started a void-of-course period lasting until much later this evening, so while that might help to minimize the long-term damage it also decreases our ability to think clearly, and we would do well to stick to our routines during this time, as the frustration and impulsiveness of the Moon/Uranus square wears off.

The Moon in Cancer trines Chiron in Pisces during the void-of-course period, increasing our capacity to reflect on the reasons for our distress as the night progresses.  We are in a better position to communicate what we feel with others during this time, especially when it comes to our sensitive quirks and hurt feelings, and we can have more compassion for both ourselves and others close to us tonight.  We are also better able to learn from our mistakes now, especially those involving deep emotions and our friends and family, and there is a real capacity for healing our wounds in the company of others tonight.

Late tonight the Moon enters Leo, moving away from the moodiness and sensitivity of the past couple of days and into a more exuberant and expressive state.  This is the time in the lunar cycle when our unconscious need is to be seen and heard, a time when our feelings take center stage and our instincts urge us to assert our own importance.  While this can lead some to become overbearing, it can also increase our passion, our creativity, and our conscious awareness of what we feel and our right to feel it.  We are far less likely to hide our feelings in the shadows during this transit, so emotions that we’ve been keeping under wraps will tend to out themselves now.  Our pride comes to the forefront now, and that can be a good thing, so long as we are willing to be gracious with others similarly feeling their own worth.  Thankfully, a leonine Moon is more magnanimous, more benevolent, and more willing to bestow the light of our own best feelings on those who do not tread too thoughtlessly on our domain.  Woe betide those we feel wronged by during this time, however!  The lion is not known for mercy toward its foes, and even the mousiest among us may roar now if we feel so stirred.  Still, most of us would much rather indulge in enjoyable feelings during this transit, and it can be a wonderful time for socializing and sharing what is best in ourselves with others in whom we appreciate similar expressions of magnificence and pride.

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If you enjoyed this post, please consider becoming one of my supporters on Patreon, where I will be posting the digital art that accompanies today’s analysis a little later in the day, along with some background on its creation.  Not only will you get an inside look into my divinatory art, but you will also help keep this blog alive and me writing and creating art daily.  I am incredibly grateful for my supporters!

Or, if you’re not into the monthly pledge thing but still want to show some support and get some art in the process, please visit my RedBubble page, where a selection of my digital art and my divinatory drawings are available printed on everything from clothing to notebooks to cellphone cases, as well as art prints.  My Etsy shop is also a good place to visit for both printed art and wearables, as well as my hand-crafted herbal dream pillows.  Every sale helps me to continue what I do here, and I deeply appreciate the support!

All aspect times used in creating this post are calculated for Pacific Standard Time.  I tend to speak in broad terms when I reference time on this blog, referring to time-frames like “morning” or “afternoon” rather than specific times, since I still have a lot of friends on the East Coast who read these posts and I’d like them to be pertinent to those friends as well as folks here on the West Coast.  Readers from further abroad will need to adjust time-frames accordingly.

Please keep in mind that we all have different responses to the aspects of the day because we all have different natal and progressed charts with which these aspects interact.  If you would like to know more about your own natal and progressed charts in order to better understand how the aspects of the day will affect you, please take a look at my astrological services, and let’s get started on helping you to understand your life better!  The threads of fate can only be adjusted when we start from a place of deep self-knowing.

Astrology Update, April 30th, 2017: Pain, Belief, and Vulnerability

The skies are quiet today until this afternoon when the Moon in Cancer sextiled the Sun in Taurus, putting our conscious and unconscious selves in harmony, our emotions in support of our core truth and our psyches attuned to our feelings in turn.  This aspect makes everything run a little smoother, interactions with others a little more harmonious, our inner and outer worlds working together.  

All of which is a much-needed blessing in view of the square between Saturn retrograde in Sagittarius and Chiron in Pisces that became exact this afternoon but has been building for the past several days, with an emotional preview yesterday, and which will continue to colour our experiences for the next week to come.  Saturn in hard aspect to Chiron is harsh no matter how you colour it, with Saturn’s restrictiveness rubbing up against our deepest and oldest wounds, but this particular iteration includes Saturn in retrograde, dredging up all of our old injuries that we would rather deny but have never managed to escape from, and shackling our hope of healing from them to our most deeply entrenched belief systems.  Intergenerational family trauma, racial and cultural trauma, ancient abuses and buried grief and anger are all creeping out of the woodwork during this transit, and the pain is both real and at the same time hard to pin down.  The very things that give us our roots and sense of connection to history and humanity are poisoning and crippling us, and today we come face to face with all of the horror and sadness and helplessness they have bequeathed us.  Somehow, we have to overcome our sense of alienation and understand the universality of our limitations, and learn to heal ourselves by reaching out with compassion toward others, even and sometimes especially the others “responsible” for hurting us.  Forgiveness is not about giving abusers a free pass, but rather about halting the toxic internalization of what has been done to us and continues to be done through us.  There is wisdom to be found here, but it is a bitter draught.  This is not an easy path to healing, and it’s going to take all of our discipline and much time to traverse, as well as the ability to think outside of the box about how we share the hard-won knowledge born from our pain, but it is a necessary path if we are to move forward and survive and maybe even thrive, both as individuals and as a species.

Tonight the Moon in Cancer trines Neptune in Pisces, reminding us of the universality of deep feeling and giving us a chance to swim in our sympathy and imaginations, and reconnect with those we love in the midst of the pain that has so much potential to divide us.  This is an emotionally healing aspect that stimulates our creativity and intuition, and invites us to spin new stories about our experiences that join us together in a safe and loving emotional space.  This is not a time for decision-making or rational thinking, but rather a time to be receptive and spiritual, safe in our homes and familiar spaces, a time to float in our fantasies and visions of our best possible world with those who can share those visions with us, and let our ability to imagine better lives lead us to them.

That said, late tonight the Moon in Cancer squares Jupiter retrograde in Libra, leading us back into a space of reconsidering our close relationships and social connections, as well as our faith and our cherished beliefs.  This day is not going to release us without challenging how we meet others with our feelings, daring us to crack open our own hard shells and be vulnerable with our biggest emotions.  Since Jupiter is a benevolent influence, this is not an unkind aspect, despite its challenges, but it can magnify whatever we feel and make it hard to take a step back or be rational about it all.  Details are not likely to be our strong suit now, and we feel drawn to delve further into our philosophical and spiritual ties with others.  Tonight we are likely to want to know what it all means, and we want to be able to share our searching with others who matter most to us.  And if our spiritual family or community doesn’t line up with our actual family and community, now is the time when we will be asking ourselves why.

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If you enjoyed this post, please consider becoming one of my supporters on Patreon, where I have posted the digital art that accompanies today’s analysis here.  Not only will you get an inside look into my divinatory art, but you will also help keep this blog alive and me writing and creating art daily.  I am incredibly grateful for my supporters!

Or, if you’re not into the monthly pledge thing but still want to show some support and get some art in the process, please visit my RedBubble page, where a selection of my digital art and my divinatory drawings are available printed on everything from clothing to notebooks to cellphone cases, as well as art prints.  My Etsy shop is also a good place to visit for both printed art and wearables, as well as my hand-crafted herbal dream pillows.  Every sale helps me to continue what I do here, and I deeply appreciate the support!

All aspect times used in creating this post are calculated for Pacific Standard Time.  I tend to speak in broad terms when I reference time on this blog, referring to time-frames like “morning” or “afternoon” rather than specific times, since I still have a lot of friends on the East Coast who read these posts and I’d like them to be pertinent to those friends as well as folks here on the West Coast.  Readers from further abroad will need to adjust time-frames accordingly.

Please keep in mind that we all have different responses to the aspects of the day because we all have different natal and progressed charts with which these aspects interact.  If you would like to know more about your own natal and progressed charts in order to better understand how the aspects of the day will affect you, please take a look at my astrological services, and let’s get started on helping you to understand your life better!  The threads of fate can only be adjusted when we start from a place of deep self-knowing.

Astrology Update, April 29th, 2017: Loneliness and Home

Late this morning the Moon in Gemini sextiled Mercury retrograde in Aries and then Uranus in Aries in short succession, emphasizing the residual effects of yesterday’s Mercury/Uranus conjunction, so that our thoughts during this time continued to change rapidly, only our moods were in a state of flux as well.  Since the sextile is a gently harmonious aspect, these fluctuations were less challenging than they would be with a harder aspect, but still we were likely to be restless and wanting to shake things up, bored with the status quo and searching for excitement.  We were not likely to be shy about vocalizing our feelings under these aspects, and communication in general was emphasized, as was socialization and meeting new people.  This was not a time for focusing on important matters, as our thoughts were likely to be running too quickly to handle deep subjects or linger anywhere for long, and our moods were too fickle to sustain any real sense of dedication from late morning into the afternoon.  

Into this volatile mix of fluctuating thoughts and feelings comes a jarring square from the Moon in Gemini to Chiron in Pisces, with an opposition from the Moon to Saturn retrograde in Sagittarius a few minutes later, stirring up the rising tide of hurt and trauma invoked by tomorrow’s square between Chiron and Saturn.  The Chiron/Saturn square has been lurking in the background for the past several days, as these are slow moving planets whose influence is felt long before and after an aspect between them becomes exact, and the Moon’s interaction with both of them today creates a tense T-square formation with Chiron acting as the release point for the isolation and enforced stoicism of the Moon/Saturn opposition, triggering our awareness of painful life lessons brought on by harsh emotional interactions.  This can be an incredibly depressive time, as we gain a heightened awareness of the disappointments and failures in our lives, and our outlook leans toward the cold and grim and lonely.  While the Moon’s interactions with both Saturn and Chiron have the blessed brevity of lunar aspects, they are an uncomfortable foreshadowing of tomorrow’s harsh square between those planets that has the potential to colour our feelings for the remainder of the day.  There is also the possibility that today’s T-square configuration will heightened tensions during the climate change marches planned across the United States today, and since Saturn governs restriction and law, and in hard aspects with Chiron increases the potential for abuse, those who are marching this afternoon would do well to take extra steps for self-protection.  With its opposition to Saturn the Moon turns void-of-course for several hours, making actions taken during the late afternoon and early evening less likely to amount to anything of consequence, which may be a blessing in view of the abusive potential of the T-square, but which also makes it harder for political actions taken during this time to be heard and taken seriously.  Our judgement is likely to be impacted as well, so this is not a time for bold and decisive action.

The Moon enters Cancer tonight, the sign that it rules, making our emotions more sensitive and more potent, so that whatever we are processing during this difficult time of the Chiron/Saturn square is likely to take on greater emotional significance.  Our emotions now are likely to center around home and family, as our loyalty is increased during this lunar transit, and we may feel very protective of both ourselves and those we love, but are also likely to relate the hurts we are processing to family and loved ones as well, so the Cancerian Moon’s closeness to home is a mixed blessing this weekend.  We are more sympathetic and intuitive during this transit, but also more inclined to feel sorry for ourselves, which makes for a rough way to navigate the Chiron/Saturn square, increasing the potential for us to feel lost in martyrdom and victimhood.  The Cancerian Moon can also increase our imagination and creativity, however, so now is a time to transmute our most difficult feelings into art and imaginative solutions, releasing what we feel through music and dance.  It is also a time to put in the extra effort toward creating emotionally safe space with those we are closest to, as challenging as that may be against the backdrop of the Chiron/Saturn square, because the need for such space is near and dear to the Cancerian heart, and it is a need which is especially poignant this weekend.

The Moon in Cancer gets a little bit of much-needed support tonight from a sextile to the North Node in Virgo, giving us an instinctual awareness of the process of our soul’s growth and how our feelings tonight further that growth.  Though our moods may fluctuate, they do so with attentiveness to the details of our experiences, helping us to work through and learn from what we are feeling rather than just feeling tossed about on the waves of emotion.  We should take the time to let ourselves feel deeply tonight while we have the capacity to look at those feelings with clarity and insight, and see them in the larger context of our souls’ path to perfection.

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If you enjoyed this post, please consider becoming one of my supporters on Patreon, where I have posted the digital art that accompanies today’s analysis here, along with some background on its creation.  Not only will you get an inside look into my divinatory art, but you will also help keep this blog alive and me writing and creating art daily.  I am incredibly grateful for my supporters!

Or, if you’re not into the monthly pledge thing but still want to show some support and get some art in the process, please visit my RedBubble page, where a selection of my digital art and my divinatory drawings are available printed on everything from clothing to notebooks to cellphone cases, as well as art prints.  My Etsy shop is also a good place to visit for both printed art and wearables, as well as my hand-crafted herbal dream pillows.  Every sale helps me to continue what I do here, and I deeply appreciate the support!

All aspect times used in creating this post are calculated for Pacific Standard Time.  I tend to speak in broad terms when I reference time on this blog, referring to time-frames like “morning” or “afternoon” rather than specific times, since I still have a lot of friends on the East Coast who read these posts and I’d like them to be pertinent to those friends as well as folks here on the West Coast.  Readers from further abroad will need to adjust time-frames accordingly.

Please keep in mind that we all have different responses to the aspects of the day because we all have different natal and progressed charts with which these aspects interact.  If you would like to know more about your own natal and progressed charts in order to better understand how the aspects of the day will affect you, please take a look at my astrological services, and let’s get started on helping you to understand your life better!  The threads of fate can only be adjusted when we start from a place of deep self-knowing.